Good Friday…opps..I mean Thursday morning! I only say that because it’s actually my Friday— My bachelorette party starts TONIGHT! 😀
This morning got off to a great start! Craig & I got up extra early & headed to the gym. I was up at about 4:45am- because I wanted to get in a workout in before work! We needed to leave the house earlier than usual this morning so that I could drop him off at the airport to head to VEGAS!
I started with a warm up of 10 minutes on the elliptical- on the highest resistance. I really don’t use the elliptical that much, I just don’t feel like I get a good workout on it- I much prefer running. But since my workout this morning was going to incorporate a lot of running & sprints, I figured I would just start on the elliptical.
After my warmup, I did a workout that I found in a Fitness Magazine from March of 2010. I have a binder of workouts, and happened to pull this one out last night thinking it would be a good one to do again. The bad part is that I CANNOT find it online 😦 Bummer!! I really wanted to share it with you, but I have spent all morning searching for it- on the Fitness Magazine website & on Google.
It was a full body workout- with weights & in between each set I sprinted on the treadmill for 90 seconds. I REALLY wish I could find it- I’m going to continue to search & if I find it, I’ll post it on here 🙂
As you know, I posted yesterday about my mind being all over the place yesterday. I really could not figure it out, but once I started REALLY thinking about it….I figured out what it was. It’s not something I am really ‘proud’ of, but I thought I would post it on here, so that I hold myself accountable.
I’m not sure if you ever read my ‘daily workouts‘ (tab at the top) but I have been doing two workouts a day on Monday- Friday. This all started because I wanted to up my mileage, so that I am ready for upcoming races. But this double working out thing has turned into a bad thing.
When I first started doing two workouts a day, I told myself that I would NOT become obsessed with doing them daily & that they were supposed to be FOR FUN…and to get some fresh air! Initially, they were- I love using my lunch break to go for a nice run- it was a nice break for the office.
But over the past week or so, it has turned from a FUN activity into a MUST activity. That was the VERY thing I told myself from Day one that I did not want to happen.
I figured all of this out because on Tuesday I was just feeling really kind of drained…and I had a few errands that I needed to run. I was just going to run the errands after work, but really after work I just want to go home & RELAX! So I thought, well I COULD just do them on my lunch break. That’s when the ‘freak out’ sort of happened.
In my head, I kept telling myself that it was TOTALLY fine to miss my afternoon workout, considering I had an AWESOME workout that morning. But then on the other hand I was like…oh no! That is going to affect my body & slow down my metabolism. Then I figured if I didn’t workout then I would just eat less calories, to make up for not working out.
It seriously was a BACK & FORTH mind battle for about a good HOUR. Then I TOLD myself that I made a promise from the beginning of these two a day workouts that I was NOT going to force myself to do them- they were supposed to be for fun.
I ended up using my lunch break to run errands, but I was miserable. I had all of these crazy thoughts running through my head & I just knew something was NOT right. When I got back to the office I even had a bit of anxiety- like weird stuff- heart beat was faster, shortness of breath. It was scary.
That’s when it REALLY hit me. WHAT was I doing to myself?! WHY IN THE WORLD was I being so critical?! I had a GREAT workout that morning, it’s not like I was skipping a whole day of working out. (Which should not affect me either..but it does..at least for now)
I seriously do NOT know what goes on in this brain of mine! It freaks me out sometimes- I really need to get these crazy thoughts under control.
Once I got back from lunch, I started Googling ‘exercise addiction.’ I just was reading all of the signs & common side effects..and what was scary was that I answered YES to almost every single question that was asked regarding exercise addiction. Just the constant feeling of exhaustion, the feeling of the NEED to workout- rather than just for fun, ANXIETY over not working out, letting it interfere with life events (like I really needed to run those errands, but I was going to pick working out instead), etc.
After reading all of that, I have made a PROMISE to myself. I will ONLY do another workout if I REALLY want to do one- IF I think I am doing it for FUN..or if I am doing it to enjoy the nice weather. NOT because I feel obligated, or that I MUST workout twice.
I know some people are going to tell me that I just shouldn’t work out twice a day, at all. But truth be told, I DO enjoy it. Seriously! I love using my lunch break to get in some exercise, just because it clears my mind & gives me more energy to power thru the day. BUT if I am feeling tired, or just plain exhausted then I will NOT push myself to do another workout, that is just stupid & bad for my body.
I know this post has gotten a bit out of control- super long! But like I said, I wanted to post it not only to get it off my mind, but also to hold myself accountable. I would also just like to know if you have ever experienced this yourself (an exercise addiction or the need to exercise twice in a day) or if you know someone that has.
I know it has a lot to do with just THINKING- it’s ALL mental & I just need to be strong & get past it!!